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i'd been having quite odd dreams lately.
though the thoughts had quieted down, the nightmares and sleep paralysis has grown to what seems as full potential
i mean, it surely can't get worse than this, right?
four nights ago, a pudgy man was stabbing me to death, and out of nowhere, his head exploded.
three nights ago, i was being followed by what seemed like a frail little girl. she was nothing but skin and bone. nothing traumatic, just made me slightly uneasy.
the nightmare that really caught my attention, and the most vivid one still, is the one from two nights ago. i was chained down as the room began to fill up with water. i'd felt pretty calm at that point. i'd kinda just accepted i was going to die, but then the water just spilled away and moments later i felt something standing over me, and it slowly moved to where it was sort of sitting on me. it covered my mouth as i tried to scream, and my body felt paralyzed. this was the first sleep paralysis i'd had since maybe august, and one of the worst. as the figure sat on me, a pair of hands came down from above me, and held my eyes open as the figure on top of me began to slowly move knives towards my eyes. when i was finally able to move, i ran out the room, and there i was, at my bed again. it was at this moment i'd realized it wasn't real.
when i woke up, my entire body was trembling, my throat was unbelievably dry, and my eyes were burning. i still felt paralyzed, as if my body was attaching itself to my bed. i dont know. everything that morning felt surreal.
getting ready for school, my movements felt impulsive. i was just doing. i wasn't thinking. my body still felt wet and covered in water, and i felt like i was still drowning. i felt like i could have passed out at any moment, and i'd go on to feel the same the entire day; dissociated, confused, and utterly unnerved.
though the thoughts had quieted down, the nightmares and sleep paralysis has grown to what seems as full potential
i mean, it surely can't get worse than this, right?
four nights ago, a pudgy man was stabbing me to death, and out of nowhere, his head exploded.
three nights ago, i was being followed by what seemed like a frail little girl. she was nothing but skin and bone. nothing traumatic, just made me slightly uneasy.
the nightmare that really caught my attention, and the most vivid one still, is the one from two nights ago. i was chained down as the room began to fill up with water. i'd felt pretty calm at that point. i'd kinda just accepted i was going to die, but then the water just spilled away and moments later i felt something standing over me, and it slowly moved to where it was sort of sitting on me. it covered my mouth as i tried to scream, and my body felt paralyzed. this was the first sleep paralysis i'd had since maybe august, and one of the worst. as the figure sat on me, a pair of hands came down from above me, and held my eyes open as the figure on top of me began to slowly move knives towards my eyes. when i was finally able to move, i ran out the room, and there i was, at my bed again. it was at this moment i'd realized it wasn't real.
when i woke up, my entire body was trembling, my throat was unbelievably dry, and my eyes were burning. i still felt paralyzed, as if my body was attaching itself to my bed. i dont know. everything that morning felt surreal.
getting ready for school, my movements felt impulsive. i was just doing. i wasn't thinking. my body still felt wet and covered in water, and i felt like i was still drowning. i felt like i could have passed out at any moment, and i'd go on to feel the same the entire day; dissociated, confused, and utterly unnerved.
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