phoenix’s diary

i continue to see things. apparitions, if you will. though, they don't look like ghosts or anything supernatural. they look unmistakably real, capturing the same essence as a human. though, i not only see people, i see animals, too. and fire, and pretty much anything else.
these visions don't feel like a dream, nor do they feel surreal in any way. it's quite difficult to explain. i see them, with two eyes or in my peripheral vision, and then another second, they're gone. completely gone.
it's exacerbated so much over the past few days, and today i saw a corpse..
what the hell is wrong with me?
i attempted to walk up to the corpse so i could identify the very intense sight, and then it was gone. the thing is, i can remember what it looked like. it was fresh, clearly.. blood still seeping from the wounds.. the wounds, they were definitely knife wounds.. i remember marks on the neck, too.. but nothing else, really.. the image is becoming foggier every minute.
i'm deeply unsettled with the sight, and i wonder if maybe its depicting something ominous.. something foreboding, and, i admit, i'm horrified. i've never been so scared in my life. i've always loved gore, but seeing a sight so real makes me sick. though, this hallucination was off, and not only because it was a corpse, but i swear i could smell it. fuck, i want to scream. im traumatized, honestly. i worry i will see something worse. god, help me please. make these hallucinations stop..