two days left

[forgottenmix]

i feel as if my heart is empty,
just an endless pit of eternal nothingness.

every day repeats itself,
but, this one was different.

this one felt peculiar.
in this one, i realize just how emotionless i truly am.

i realized this past couple of months, my feelings have been fake.
and the myriad times suicide has crossed my mind.

i have no reason to be this way, either.
my life isn’t all that great, but isn’t anywhere near horrible.

maybe I’m insane, but it’s going to be okay, right?
that’s what they all say.

maybe if I just end it all the numbness will heal.