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the only truth that makes me sick is i'm always going to be the fat friend.
the worst part about this is; i'm not even that fat. i just constantly get made fun of for being slightly overweight. now, i'd lost a lot of weight since childhood, but i'm still fat.
everything's worse now, too, because since i have an eating disorder, every bite of food makes me bloated. honestly, not eating feels horrible, but it makes me look so good. in this case, i'd rather sacrifice health for looks.
i wish i could look like my friends.
one of these days i know i'm going to just stop eating. i can't handle eating food. it makes my stomach ache to even look at food. i hate it. the hunger is unbearable, but even that is better than eating it.
yes, eating fills the void of hunger, but it fills the void to a point where it becomes overwhelming. even the slightest bit of food makes me feel like i'd eaten too much, and it's absolutely revolting. i'd much rather die of hunger then feel what i feel every time i eat now.
honestly, i just want to feel pretty.
the worst part about this is; i'm not even that fat. i just constantly get made fun of for being slightly overweight. now, i'd lost a lot of weight since childhood, but i'm still fat.
everything's worse now, too, because since i have an eating disorder, every bite of food makes me bloated. honestly, not eating feels horrible, but it makes me look so good. in this case, i'd rather sacrifice health for looks.
i wish i could look like my friends.
one of these days i know i'm going to just stop eating. i can't handle eating food. it makes my stomach ache to even look at food. i hate it. the hunger is unbearable, but even that is better than eating it.
yes, eating fills the void of hunger, but it fills the void to a point where it becomes overwhelming. even the slightest bit of food makes me feel like i'd eaten too much, and it's absolutely revolting. i'd much rather die of hunger then feel what i feel every time i eat now.
honestly, i just want to feel pretty.
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